It is hard for me to start this post. God is helping me to see how close He is and it is hard for me to explain. This morning as Rick and I prayed together, I agreed with his prayer and he covered what we needed to say but I prayed on telling God I just felt I needed to talk to Him out loud. Then this afternoon I read an email from someone in Ecoquest about expressing ourselves out loud to God and reading the Bible out loud. She gave this scripture: " In the morning You hear my voice, O Lord; in the morning I prepare (a prayer, a sacrifice) for You...and watch and wait (for You to speak to my heart). Psalm 5:3 Amplified Bible. She was saying how important it is no matter how many appointments we have or jobs to do, we need to make sure God is our first appointment.
But even more than that, this morning as prayer was finished I wished I could stay there in more prayer and Bible study instead of going to work. But right when I got up I felt God reminding me that He would be here right beside me all day. He has been reinforcing that all morning, "I'm right here beside you". I thought how hard it would be if Rick were to pass on, we are one and that would be like half of me. But if he does, God is right here beside me. As I sat in my new dentist office, feeling uneasy because the dentist chair is one of my phobia's, God said "I'm right here beside you." He reminded me of the scripture I learned many years ago: Psalm 27 "The Lord is my light and my salvation, whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life, of whom shall I be afraid? When my enemies came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell. Though an host should encamp against me my heart shall not fear. Though war should rise up against me in this will I be confident."
Boy was David confident and I can be too! There are some days when I feel hounded by the enemy. But when I keep on running and trusting God, the next thing you know, the oppression is lifted. Evidently God caused him to stumble and fall. How many times has God given us the experience like the Israelites hovering around the enemies camp with lights and the enemy was handled by God. We take it for granted and don't even realize what He did.
I just looked up candle trying to find that story and got stopped by Psalm 18:28, 29 "For thou wilt light MY CANDLE: the Lord my God will enlighten MY darkness. For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall." Praise GOD!
The dentist chair is nothing compared to other things that I am facing. I have to laugh at myself because it was only a cleaning! But we're talking an antique phobia, like 50 years old!
God said He is closer than a brother. He is right here beside me, all day long. Hallelujah!